Over the past few days, been getting some very strong inclination towards cutting again (been 4 months since I last did... and I have had good stretches like this before)... strong intrusive thoughts that I can't really give a reason for... I suppose I have just been feeling very unsettled. My point of contact (community psychiatric nurse) is on holiday, so I left a voice mail asking if a duty worker could call me (this was about 5 hours ago). In the mean time I text my support worker (who is also on holiday.... my timing is wonderful ) and after a brief conversation it transpired that I was putting her in an awkward position as ideally she should forward this information on (to cover her own back)... I understand this reasoning and in some ways it's clarrified what her remit is.... but it's also shut the only other door for getting these thoughts out of my head (sharing does sometimes work).

Meh, figured I'd type it out here in the hope of some moral support I know at the end of the day the buck stops with me if I do or do not... but needed to speak to someone without feeling it'll bite me in the arse in some way