Peeled myself out of bed today. Managed to make it to work. After my first class my co teacher and professional partner said I need to act "more alive" and that I was too lenient. Uuuugh I wish I could tell her it was because I'm depressed but she wouldn't get it. Plus I don't want anyone at this job to know. I don't trust any of them.

Then I got observed by the curriculum director! I think I pulled it together pretty well but it's hard to say. I'll be meeting with her another day to discuss it. I've heard she is really harsh on teachers when she observes. My first observation went well but I was feeling good that time, plus I had time to prepare. At least I had a good lesson planned for today. I'm just not sure if I did one of the components right.

Now I just want to go home and sleep. But the depression is definitely not as severe today. I wanted to cry after my coteacher told me those things but she's right, what can I say. I just hope I don't lose this job at the end of the year. I really love it. It's just so hard when I'm down.