It often seems I can never quite keep all my ducks in a row, and also that the challenges of life continue to increase while my abilities to overcome them continue to diminish. Therefore, the overall challenge is to nevertheless continue doing my very best as a husband, father and provider to at least be certain my family knows they are not going to be abandoned or forsaken by me no matter how difficult things might become for all of us together. Making life the best it can possibly be for my wife is what keeps me going today, and it sounds to me like both of our wives are doing their best at the same for each of us in return. What makes all of this so difficult? I spent much of my life believing my hard work would ultimately make life better and easier for all of us, but I have since had to abandon that kind of thought in favor of all of us learning to work together in whatever ways we can in order for any of us to be able to endure life at all.