I'm gonna address a few questions here hope no one minds
1. To answer my little one's question... big people cry about the same kinda of things little people cry about. We cry when we get hurt or are scared...mostly we cry because we feel like nobody cares...and we cry a lot about all the people and memories and moments we have lost...we cry for you.
2.If I could have anything for xmas...a time machine to go back to stop whatever happened to us that caused all this pain.
3. I want to run far far away all the time! Before I understood what was going on really...I used to run away ALOT! But it did no good cuz wherever I went still we were there and I hurt many other parts and people I love as well.
3. Satisfaction? "I can't get no..but I try and I try and I try and I try..." lol sorry couldn't resist throwing some Stones into the mix!
4. 4 yrs ago... I was in denial. Painful time. Somethings were much happier....but couldn't ever really find peace of mind bc I didn't understand how broken we were...just that nothing was right and always scrambling to catch up, cover up..but couldn't hold on....I understand a heck of a lot more now...but things are not better situationally a lot worse..personally just different I guess.. idk. That's a tough one!

How do you keep track of time?.. or at least how do you try to?