I don't think that I am depressed but what do I know, however I am still able to feed myself and sleep and maintain hygiene to survive.

I have been thinking about seeing a therapist for a while so I can have someone to talk to about my worries and my negative talk, and I cannot do that to my family members because that will bring them down and quite frankly just hearing them trying to help me annoys the hell out of me because I hear the same thing every single time.

At the moment I am happy enough to not see a therapist because I feel like since I know myself best I am the one who can offer the best support for myself, the therapist will not know my limitations nor will s/he know what works best for me.
What helps me is distracting my mind and try to do things that I want to do, even if that is staring out of the window all day.
I don't know therapists but I think they will dismiss you if they don't find you interesting, and I can guarantee if you tell a therapist that you hear voices then they will suddenly be interested and will listen to you AND THEN they will give you cocktails of medication... That's money for them at your expense.

Also I hate the idea of accepting help from therapists since I don't want help because I am living the life I always wanted to, part-time job and a drinker and I cant imagine being anything else. The idea of living the life that the average person lives makes me very nervous and I would rather not live that way of life... Its just too much pressure, too much responsibility.

I do not want to take medication because they cause more problems, even though there are new medications out there they still have bad side effects.
I will not see a therapist unless things get really bad or if life seems utterly unbearable and I would have to be in a state when I say to myself "The medication will be worth it."

Sorry for being a bit rude... And thank you for your reply