First, Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays everybody😊 I haven't been on in a while, busy with life and family.
Been feeling some pressure to re-enter the work force. I used to teach, but I've been out of work for a couple of years after a major break down in 2014. I'm doing much better now and have been working hard on my recovery, but..I can't seem to get past the intense anxiety I feel about working again. Teaching is just not on the table any more. Problem is I can't see myself being successful in any job. I have zip zero nada confidence in my ability to be competent in any job. I am afraid that the minute I am feeling anxiety about my job performance or dread that I am not measuring up I will fall apart again. I wish wish wish I could find a low stress p/t job that could help ease me back into working. If I could see myself being successful and get some momentum going, it be enough to get me over this fear. My therapist has recommended Vocational Rehab. She says the fact that I am receiving mental health services at the county mental health clinic will qualify me for their services. They might be able to retrain me for a different career path. What that path is, I don't have a clue. I am 54 and my life experiences are raising a family, college in my thirties, and 13 mostly miserable fearful years of teaching. The only thing I can see now, that might be a match, is something in the mental health field. Starting over scares me to death.