Hi Soliaree,

You crack me up with all those icons how funny. It seems as if they are many more of us dealing with this issue than I knew. I don't think it would be a problem for me if my T was a female for some reason. But since he is a man, it's like I want to dress up nice when I see him and I do wonder what he thinks of me probably some crazy you know what. I think if my marriage was not in such serious trouble, I wouldn't have these feelings about him like I do. they're pretty intense and I can't seem to stop them. Some days are better than others. I've also exposed myself to him with all my mind, thoughts and feelings that no one else seems to be worthy of me sharing them with. No wonder I feel the way I do about him. He's kinder, nice, polite, caring, compassionate about me all the time. He never gets angry with me for anything and really looks worried about me when I'm not in a good state as I see it in his face. I just wish I had met him under different circumstances.