You were honest 2 hours AFTER you took the pills. I could see how your husband would be upset and frightened. I hold my own meds, but I tell my husband when I take them everyday. I also tell him when I have to take an as needed med or when I adjust my meds with the ok of my Pdoc. This helps him feel that I am safe. I feel bad for him sometimes because having a wife with mental illness must be a scary thing. But he is my rock. He asks me everyday if I am ok and if there is anything he can do to help. He was with me in the dark times when I was not on meds so he's glad I'm on them now

I think you should be more assertive with your pdoc about anxiety. If you are to the point of self medicating then you are not in a safe place.