I'm sorry you are so far away from her. For me, the phone just isn't the same either. Sometimes email seems a bit more intimate to me. Do you email her? My brother and sister live across the country so I understand how depressing it is to be so far away.

As far as the cuss word goes--I find it strange the PC changes the mildest cuss words into a bunch of astericks--It feels good to cuss when you are anonymous and depressed.