we have already had the talk about how quitting cigarettes is like quitting heroine and he understands that its hard to quit and he personally has never had to quit something he was addicted to so he really doesnt know what the withdrawls and everything feels like. i asked him if it was kinda like out of sight out of mind and he said yes, he just doesnt want to see me doing it i guess. and the only time i do is at work so i dont go postal. lol we dont really need justification. he is also 3 years older than me and is graduated from college so hes done all his partying etc... so he also understands that he has a lot more experience than me and i dont want to act like im 45 when im 20. so we agreed that as long as i dont start back doing 2 packs a day that he was fine with me smoking.

he also admitted to me that the reason it bothered him so much when i smoked wasnt because of the cigarettes but who i was with - this guy i worked with really liked me and he was usually my smoking buddy. he felt like we had a connection with smoking that jason and i couldnt have (jason is my bf). but now we have moved and i hardly ever talk to that guy anyways so hes fine now. just took a while to get that out of him.