so after a gut wrenching breakup with a Narcissistic A**HOLE, I started attending Codependents Anonymous meetings and WOW!!!! I'm learning so much about myself and why I've been on this hamster wheel all my life, BUT there's a big elephant in the room that I want to remove, but I'm afraid...

Ex BF was a ballroom dance instructor. In fact, I met him at the one class I attended but decided never to return to. Fast forward to three years later when our paths UNFORTUNATELY crossed again and he put me through HELL during the majority of our short lived relationship.

Well, during that time, he gave me private lessons and despite what he says, I was getting pretty good -- good enough to actually start enjoying dancing.

Since our demise, I have been practicing on my own, but I really need to practice with a partner which means I probably need to go to a class.

Therein lies the problem. He's pretty known in the ballroom circle and I don't think I'm ready to run into him or anyone he may know. I know it's codependent to worry about what others think, but I could easily see how weird it would be if we ran into each other.

Since I didn't do the classes before and I did run into him, due to his Narc Egotism, he would probably think I was trying to purposely be around him. In addition, I don't really know how I would act in his presence.

While I'm planning on giving things at least a couple more months to cool off, I don't want to give him power by NOT doing something I enjoy or jumping through hoops to avoid him. The closest class where I MAY not run into him is 1.5 hours away.

UGH!!!! It's irritating to me that this jerk still has somewhat of a hold on my despite my healing progress. Thoughts?