I am referring to when people just don't consider you a worthwhile person. Many people will be nice to you, just to feed into the false narrative that they are good people, but they don't actually see you as an equal and don't feel that you are entitled to their kindness. Which is why at any given moment they can say something completely disrespectful and hurtful without warning or hesitation.

Want to know how people really feel about you? Pay attention to how they talk about others who are similar to you. I know society at large doesn't like me because of the way I see people talking about other socially awkward, cognitively slow males. They can be totally nice to me and it won't matter because I know how they really feel.