A slow day at work today. Funny thing is that most of the action for the whole day happened when I was eating lunch. It seems like that never fails.

I did not sleep well last night. So I feel more depressed today. I talked to my 80-year old friend last night and he depressed me. There are times when he can have a knack to depress me. Mostly because he can not understand how I feel. While in bed last night, trying to sleep, my thoughts were about how I had blown so many things in the past.

Today I read in an article (on Psych Central) about Borderline Personality. It sounded so much like me with the way I react to things and how I was raised by my parents. I had been feeling some depression today - thinking about how it seems like I have to put myself out for others. And no one is putting themselves out for me.

Also I was reading on another forum board that I used to be on (I can still access it even though I deleted my profile from it) and a woman had posted her gratitude towards all of the other posters. She never mentioned me. A couple of times a few months ago, she and I had spoken on the phone to each other. We were going to get together one time, but I bailed out because I didn't like her.