I work in the hospital. I was sexually abused as a child, just don't remember a lot about the specifics of it. I have been having sleep issues consistantly for months now. I jump awake in panic attacks. My psychiatrist seems to think it's from nightmares that my PTSD caused.

A couple days ago, I had an interaction with a guy at my work. He told me that I was gorgeous. He followed me and my friend to the break room to eat. I did not want him around, but felt trapped. I have never been in a relationship before because I'm terrified of intimacy. I don't want to be touched. I went into another world when that guy was there, talking to my friend and I. I completely shut down.

I processed this with my T today. I told her that I was afraid this was a flashback I had through a nightmare. She said that's always possible, but wanted to explore other possibilities as well. I was extremely shaken up because I physically felt what was done to me in the nightmare. I felt the aftermath, even hours after the nightmare. I still felt their hands on me. All I wanted to do was completely cover myself and hide. I did also find it possible that the situation with that guy at work caused me to have this nightmare. I know what it feels like to be sexually assaulted. It's possible the dream just brought up more about my abuse. I have nightmares a lot, I think b.c. of my PTSD.