Plugging right along with my med change. Lots of personal stuff happening with my son so my emotions are just all over the place. Sobbing from sorrow one second, tears of joy the next, laughing hysterically over things which may not be funny (but my dad agreed it was so who know) then sobbing again and round and round and round. All things considered I think I'm doing well. I'm hopeful that my son will get better....he keeps begging to come home and it's killing me. I go back and forth between being sad and scared for him and being angry because of what he did to my poor mother. He's broken her heart in a way I'm not sure it can be mended. She has sacfraficed so much of her life for others.....for him especially and he threw it in her face which is killing me. She has so much pain in her face and voice and it kills me that I can't fix it for her. She's the most beautiful person in the world to me and deserves nothing but love. My son is sick but he's also an ungrateful snot right now and I am oscillating between being scared and wanting to hug him and wanting to tell him how much he's hurt his grandmother. I just want him well....and I want my moms pain to lessen. I just want everyone happy and healthy in every way.