It's a feeling that never goes away. You can chalk it down to rage or whatever, but that doesn't change the fact that it's there. I'm unsure whether or not this is something that is a common thread among this forum or if it's just me. I burn and desire so much for a fight. It's like an unrelenting call to arms, though there's no war to fight, or win for that matter. I've tried to calm it, silence it, domesticate it to avail. I've felt this ever since I was a kid, before double digits. Why do I crave the abuse and chaos similar to my upbringing? I got out; why do I want it back? It makes no sense.