I feel like after the maelstrom (hypo, depressed, and worst of all the mixed episodes to bad, bad, bad) of this past summer I feel like I'm at a baseline. I'm on 200 mg Lamictal monotherapy and it seems like it is working. I'm less volatile, I'm staying on task in the shop with less wild diversions, and my business is actually beneficial to my household. Part of me wonders if this is just the winter season. This coming spring will be the real test. Springs have been the wellspring of wildness for me.. followed by the trenches in summer. I KNOW this is best for me. But.. if it truly has stabilized.. I will miss the hypomanic behavior that has likely brought me to where I am as an artist ... if not a businessman. If it were not for the crap depressions (when I do NOTHING)... I suppose I could have gotten by with where I was. I don't know... anyway. There it is.