My problem is that noone will really support me so far. I am in the process of diagnosis with a high probability due to my pdoc and psychologist that I have BPII, which also fits my personal impression. I live far away from my familiy though and my friends tell me that I shouldn't go to a doctor because it is just a phase and I don't need meds and I shouldn't make such a big deal of it. I am getting really angry at this point because I am someone who considers things a lot before doing them and I have done ten years of therapy before deciding I wanna be diagnosed and go on meds. It feels like they are not taking me seriously by saying this but obviously I also keep a lot of stuff to myself and don't tell all the world about suicidal thoughts and self-harm when depressed or the risky stuff I do when hypo. This forum is a huge help. About the job - I never did anything like quit, because I know I need the money and I usually force myself through it.