I was once in a group ACOA not sure if that's the right letters. Adult children of alcoholics. I felt very out of myself. They were all about sharing what they were experiencing. My life goal was to cover up what was not good. I really didn't know how to be there. It was out of context for me.

That was when I was pregnant with my youngest, now almost 18. I was looking for strength and answers that I didn't understand. Hope that makes sense.

Now. I so wish I could find a group that I could be a part of. Be open and honest. Be real. I'm working through some pretty tough stuff right now and it would be such an amazing gift to me, if that was an option.

Again.

Do you grieve what was not?

Sorry. That is the main topic on my mind right now.