I was actively delusional about my friend conspiring with several groups of people to drive me crazy for 3 years. I don't think I was in a mood episode the entire time. Now I can clearly see I was delusional the whole time but it lasted so long!

I have belief systems which the doctors call delusions and they are always present for the most part and I don't see them as delusions or agree with the doctors as they are my spiritual beliefs. I'm mostly stable now I think....depressed a bit but nothing too bad and I'm sure all my spiritual stuff has been the creator talking to me and guiding me. I just have too much going on in my life that can't be coincidence....my friend and family agrees. Someone is communicating with me and they use code or covert methods. I need direct and overt instructions they they need to work on their delivery system.