I have this. I'm a very spiritual person. It's totally natural to me. And although I've had delusions, I just do not accept that all mystical and psychic experiences are delusional. When I began my treatment, I chalked it all up to delusion and maybe even psychosis. But then something happened recently. I'm totally compliant and relatively level...at least much more so than before treatment. I used to see faces before, soon after lying down to got to sleep and closing my eyes. Other people have described the same thing. But I thought it was bogus when I got well. I stopped all of my spiritual practices after my breakdown because I was afraid of going there again. Well a couple of months again, I began performing one of my spiritual practices....kriya yoga. I started seeing the faces again immediately. Freaky. I don't know what they are. Spirits. Past lives. Or what, I don't know. Whatever they are they are harmless. And there's just no way they are delusions or hallucinations. I'm on anti-psychotics. It was a directly consequence of the meditation. It opens something up. I believe they are some kind of psychic experience, and I'm not convinced that is good for me. So I stopped doing it. It went away.
Since I've been well, I've also had conversations with God and Jesus. I believe in them, oh, maybe 90%. Does that make me crazy? Those are mystical experiences, and those have been very helpful to me. So I still pray and once in awhile I listen.
There are a lot of people who believe in OBE, Astral Projection, Angels, spirits, Witchcraft, prayer, healing, etc. That does not make them delusional. But stuff like that has been a problem for me so I don't mess with it anymore (except for prayer and healing). That's really the only thing that is important, that it caused a problem and that I can stop it....or that it has been a benefit to me so I continue.
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