Hello. I have an issue that has been driving me absolutely crazy and causing major stress in my life and relationship..For the last 2 years I have owned my own business and it has not been that successful. I dumped a ton of money and time into it and am not seeing the returns. The problem is that i also hold a Union book that i keep active and allows me to come and go. I got into the union right after highshool after I lost both my parents and decided i needed to go right to work. i have done this for 7 years and really do not enjoy the work and come home miserable everyday and cant wait to get laid off as soon as i start. The problem is i do not really have a problem paying my bills which i am extremely thankful for but that drains all my motivation to work for somebody. So I continue to bounce back and forth between both and dump money into my business and try and make it work. . The real issue is that i really do not want to do either of those things because my true passion is to be cop. I have taken all the tests for this year and i am just playing a waiting game to hear back.. this has completely screwed my head up and i cant seem to commit fully to either the business or union and pick what is best for me mentally and financially. i find myself just doing nothing but thinking and going crazy with 2 feet in different doors. as soon as i say i am going to do one i immediately want to do the other and it is a vicious cycle of doubt and anxiety...