I was enjoying a wonderfully elevated, up to euphoric, creative and productive hypomania for more then a week after switching from slightly mixed to normal to hypomanic for weeks. Now it felt amazing and I enjoyed absolutely everything I did. On Sunday it started to feel less amazing because I got really wired and couldn't stop moving nor concentrate on anything anymore. Me being agitated got worse until yesterday it went to uncontrolled giggling. Today I have been way over the top wired and started to get irritable and then had some kind of strange experience.

Some people I recently came to know, very alternative life style, one of them is a stripper, invited me to a tango party (I dance). I knew it was a club where they also have sex parties but usually the tango parties in those kinds of clubs are good and everyone is respectful. When I got there my friends weren't there and I found myself to be alone in a room where people were dancing tango and having oral sex in public. This does not really molest me but it is nothing I would like to do. Anyway I was alone and a man came to speak to me and we danced a little and then he invited me to do you know what with him and I told him off and said I had come to dance but he kept molesting me and I learned my friends had gone to a fetish party downstairs which I didn't want to join. I felt molested by the guy who wouldn't leave me alone even though I had made myself clear.

You have to know that I live in Berlin and those places are quite common and the tango parties are pretty normal with a little sexy flair but usually people are very respectful. Something like that hadn't happened to me before. I escaped after a few minutes and felt awfully alone.

Since then my mood is turning to a little dark and I don't know what to do with the energy I have left. I spent at least 18 hours out of my place today but I feel it is impossible to sleep but anyway I don't feel the joy of fresh hypomania anymore and I am afraid to crash or go to a mixed state. Any advice how I could stop that from happening? Sorry for the long post, had to get that off my chest.