First time using these forums interesting enough. Nonetheless I am looking for some advice across the board. I'm a 17 year old male currently in 11th grade.

I find that I'm always distressed, rarely happy because I feel as if I'm not reaching my full potential and have a lack of purpose. I've been diagnosed over the years with ADD(no hyperactivity) Hypersexual symptoms, OCD, aspburgers, severe asthma (my oxygen levels have hit 87%)( brain damage?)before I went to the hospital, turned blue during a few febrile seazures, fell down a fight of 14 stairs when I was 12 months old and I apparently have bipolar otherwise not specified, with ultra rapid cycling (that abilify made worse and let to mood changes ever two hours or so.) I haven't been to school in two months, yet have been keeping up with my classes through tutors. I do have goals but my concern is that I will never be able to reach them. I days of brilliance and days where I feel like I'm fully autistic in a (non nonoffensive way) this has led me cram prospective projects when I have days of clarity. However I can never seem to finish what I start, I know I'm not normal and don't see myself going to college. I do realize that I must find a income that works for me in order to survive. Start ups or product licensing seem the most atractive to me. I trust people to much and I have been scammed a few times online because of it. My aspburger “interests” seem to be war, modern warfare from ww1 to present with a WW2 favorite, and guns(which is ironic as I have suicidal thoughts during my depressive episodes yet I would love to own an range of sks’s, mosin nagants, ect.) But beyond all else if I could focus I could have the world at my fingertips because I could follow through on a project or appointment, invest in innovative designs or become a landlord of millennial's in 60-120 thousand dollars In debt from earning a collage degree that no longer guarantees a job do to education inflation. But I just can't focus/stay motivated without losing interest the next day (although music can help me focus for short periods of time by tapping into anger and emotions and is by no means effective long term..) I'd like to put a label on it so I can attack and overcome it. So anyone got any ideas? And thank you for reading this long story of mine. Have a wonderful Christmas.