I'm sorry things are so bad right now. I can relate to how you feel... For me stressed is constant. Things keep happening like always. Full breakdown, things get really bad...I go in and out of consciousness, feel scared and out of control. I am not really me anymore. Blackness is very dark feel trapped. Lights come back on and I am surrounded by chaos. Then eventually I slip away into a deep peaceful sleep. Somewhere that I can smell the ocean and I am at peace. Usually when I wake up, weeks to months past, but things are back to my normal. I sometimes get told who/ what was here in my absence and what they were doing. If it's not over yet...I slip back usually quickly..If it is I stay longer..either way, I don't care anymore/ not stressed by the other parts. Don't care about anything except that peaceful place where I sleep dreamless near the sea. If it is my time to be awake and in control back to stress and worry, but can handle it for however long I am here bc I feel rested rejuvenated. Then the stress and pressure starts to build again. And round and round we go.