I've never in my life felt like a failure as much as I do now.
I've gotten an F in 2 classes and I have to repeat them next semester.
I have never gotten an F in my life which is a huge shock for someone like me (I always get A, A-, and 1 B)
I think this has to do with what was happening this semester, I had to visit a psychiatric for the first time because my OCD was getting out of hand. Sometimes I go days without sleep because of the thoughts. Sometimes I lock myself in my room because thoughts of harming other people and myself.
I'm really sad at the moment, and I feel frustrated with myself.
I don't know what to do. I'm scared I'll fail more classes next semester. I'm ruining my GPA.
My mother herself doesn't know how to deal with me. Psychiatric/therapist is hella expensive, money isn't the main problem but finding an appointment is very rare, you need to wait months.