What are the problems you're experiencing; what makes you think you have a borderline personality?

A diagnosis may be helpful. Mainly to find people like you. But it's not like most people, including clinicians, will suddenly understand everything about you. But they might think they do. That's not very helpful. A BPD diagnosis is at best a lot less helpful than a BP diagnosis.

Do you ever feel very strong emotions and you fear them, especially the pleasant ones, like (or i.e.) love (or empathy)? Do they (seemingly) control your thoughts and behaviour (at times)? Do you ever feel inadequate?