(((QueenCopper)))
I feel you. Sometimes all you can do is take it day by day, hour by hour, sometimes even minute by minute. But you will make it through this. Somehow, someway, just have faith that it's psychologically impossible to stay in the dumps forever.
And give yourself permission to be a mess. You can't start to put yourself back together if you keep beating yourself up for being a mess.
You can do this, my friend. You are stronger than you know!
I'm rooting for you!