My first one was this year actually. It was mania induc d but mild at that. Still, the delusions and hallucinations scared me. I don't remember much of that week in the hospital. I know I was on Thorazine after the mania wore down I was suicidal and depressed. My dr changed up almost all my meds too. Since March I have been stable but had more hallucinations every once in a while.

I think it takes time to accept what's happened and move forward. I wish the best for you in healing.