Hate the holidays. No parents no family other than my 2 boys. Single mom, struggling to make ends meet and dealing with the sadness of missing my family and the big family Christmas get togethers. Now, I let my boys enjoy a family get together with their dads family while I sit home alone. I have no one. I get no presents, except my little guy always gets me something from the Santa Shop at school. This year he bought me a Charlie Browner Christmas tree. Best gift I've ever gotten! he knows I love the Peanuts. As usual, I'll sit home and wait for the kids to come home in the evening, but at least I have my little tree with me. Means everything.

Sorry for the rant. I'm in the dreaded "I'm a bad mom and my kids deserve better than me" mood. I pray every day that this episode will end soon.

Cherish the get togethers you are fortunate enough to have because when they're gone, they're gone forever.