i bet in america a shrink would not come to your house for a gold pig, But my nurse sally //// yes we get free nurse after 65 she has told him i am fragile and she thinks i may top myself , i think there going to ask me to take ECT to rattle the brain around , i will say yes i have ran out of meds to try and i have just done a 3 med trail . one after the other all failed. I havent the strength to do another i am nuked . Feels like i have a house brick inside my head , I AM LOW , has low has anyone can go ,and we dont no of any med to try again. he wants to talk the way foward with my care , its more like 2 steps forward 10 back . I WONT TOP MYSELF unless i can keep 3 litre of russian vodka down without puking , people never overdose with meds you need a tuck load to kill you and then you would not die . I USED TO TAKE MY FRIEND EVERY OTHER WEEK TO A-E overdosed , there was a hole corridor of beds with overdoses , they all went home in the morning, dont humiliate yourself with an overdose, the staff dont want you your taking up space for car crash victims. My friend DID KILl HIMSELF IN THE END HE WAS 42. bought some heroin /// never taken any in his life . now he can overdose he did he died and left a wife and young baby.