I have a decent job now, so that's one less thing to worry about compared to last year.

I don't have any goals in life, I am just sort of drifting with the wind or whatever. I don't really want to grow up, I have no desire for intimacy or relationships other than friendships, I don't have a ton of friends but I worry a lot about losing touch with them.

I thought I'd feel better after getting a job. My job keeps me busy, and I usually don't have too much time to obsess over my thoughts. I feel like I am still depressed, but in a different way, for different reasons. Every now and then I just stop what I'm doing and think 'what the heck am I doing with my life?' or 'Where is my life going?'

I have rediscovered my passion for my guitar, and getting better on it makes me feel good. It seems to be the only thing giving me a sense of satisfaction right now, I wish I had more time to spend on it.