I think I am ugly and awkward, this is not a new thing, but lately I've been feeling like other people don't need to put up with me or endure me, I don't know why. When I think about spending time with other people, my mind says 'you don't deserve to bond with people' and 'If I were them I wouldn't want to be with someone like me'. I feel like I'm some weird ogre living among human beings and they just feel sorry for me so they let me stay with them out of pity.