Hello scar12346: Well... cutting isn't the worst thing in the world. But it does present its own dangers. I presume I don't have to tell you what those are. Personally I don't think it would be appropriate for me to suggest whether it is better to cut now when the urge is small versus later on. What I feel I can say is it would certainly be best if you could not cut at all... if you could reach out, in real life, for the help you need. But if you do cut, please do so carefully. I wish you well...