so I just feel empty and loney inside.....it really just makes no sense at all. I mean I am engaged I have friend in my life, not ones that I talk to all the time...but they are still there in my life.

I have trust issues with making new friends and some of the new ones I have made just don't really talk to me that often or very selectively and it makes me feel self conscious and I wonder if I can trust this person.

even when the person really does seem like a good person.

I also ended up failing my certification test to become a CNA and I really, really wanted this so of course its been really eating me up inside.

I feel really ashamed and embarrassed by it all, although I am going to go through the course again....I just feel horrid.

AND my birthday is coming up in like three days...and I honestly don't even feel happy about it. I am trying to keep a positive outlook on things but that's just becoming more and more hard to do for me.