I was 20 and my high school sweetheart was killed. I'm not sure how I survived that time. It was a dream yet a nightmare at the same time. It wasn't real life. I couldn't tell reality from not. I took two months off work after I spent a solid week in bed. I lost 10lb off my already thin frame in that week. I still couldn't tell you what was real or not. It was a good year before I started feeling my new normal. I haven't been the same since.