Wow! What a tough year! You seem to suggest you have nothing going for you, but the fact you're still standing after so much tragedy & heartache speaks to your resiliancy & fortitude. For the next week or two, you can focus on a few things; Wednesday is the Winter Solstice - each day after that will bring more light each day; if you're Christian, Christmas signifies the birth of "the Son."; finally, the new year, 2017, is around the corner...It will be a clean slate! I know these things will not make much of a dent in your sadness & stress, but these are just suggestions. I'm glad you posted...I'm sure you're in all of our thoughts, so you're not alone!