I just can't hold down a job. I have gone through 42 jobs in 35 years. I haven't lost any of them but the pattern is that I convince myself that will happen and sabotage myself by quitting before my employer has the chance to let me go. Between mania and anxiety I get myself so worked up that I sure it was affecting my coworkers and threatened my otherwise good performance. I have been on disability the last 3.5 years.