It might be bipolar related. When manic I accumulate stuff....I clean and organize it but then depression hits and it falls into disarray and I get so overwhelmed by it all. I like the model home look with a few cute nick knacks here and there.....I just have too much stuff. We need to do another big clean out and donation again. I'm far to sick to clean like I used to and it was a major psychological sore spot for me for years. For better or worse I've excepted it now. People who live in tidy homes are no better than those who live with clutter. Some really nice people live in clutter while some neat freaks are upright and rude.....and vice versus. How tidy I am does not determine my kindness or worth. I do want my physical pain to leave so I can have a tidier house in the future....because it does effect my mood. But I don't judge myself as harshly as I used to. (((Hugs)))