You know, I'm getting so tired of comments, phrases, noises, humming, impulsive talking coming out of my mouth without any conscious effort on my behalf.
I try to carry a business like decorum which is hard to do when one is goofy gabby. A lot of times I daze up wondering if I just said what I said. I know it's the Others switching in and out, I've asked then to stop, but it's all triggered. Like if an action happens like a board goes flying there is an automatic joke that jumps out. Like it's an instant takeover then out again.
I always feel disconnected and it's like I'm going through the motions as the Others be.. or I'm just losing it going crazy finally.
Just saying...it's like we almost can't tell whose thoughts whose...very distracting.
Oh well, back to work guys and gals.
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