I've had here and there psychotic symptoms for more than a decade now, but my first real psychotic break happened last winter.

It started out as a euphoric mania. The world felt mystical and special and I started to get more and more into religion (I'm not normally religious). Then I started to think God was sending me message and asking me to do things, like fasting. I obeyed of course. Then angels in general and the angel Gabriel in particular started to communicate with me too. The angels were cruel and would sometimes swoop over and around me; I remember seeing their shadows. They would send me false messages pretending to be God. For example, they told me I was pregnant with the next coming of Christ, but I later got conflicting messages and I realized they were lying to me. Gabriel would, at times, protect me from them: when the angels were menacing me once, he possessed the body of my cat and ran over to me to scare them off.

When I was getting admitted to hospital, I remember everything was shining and I was getting lots of positive messages, so I was convinced I was in the right place surrounded by "God's people." I kept getting messages from God the entire time I was in hospital and even afterwards (they only kept me for a week!). I remember a week after hospital hearing the angels whispering in my room when I was trying to sleep.