Thank you for your kind words. I guess I have been through alot, its tough when people around me get disgusted because I dont have a job and think I should have moved on by now. Im having a heck of a time sleeping. Been taking seroquel 25mg and 2 mg lorazepam with limited results. My bipolar goes way low and the mainia is like a "normal" person having a good day. I've been knocked down before, but not like this and eventually it gets better, its just remembering that. Im not suicidal but feeling I dont care and longing for some kind of other drama to move me out of this one. Thank you again, nice knowing thete is somewhere i can go where im embraced and understood.