My first was at 19
I had been awake for four days and nights.
I got a Bible and started babbling pretty much incoherently. My boyfriend brought me to my parents and they brought me to a hospital. It was really expensive but my stepdads insurance paid.
They put me in a while padded cell with a tiny window. 2 goon nurses came in and told me if I didn't calm down they'd put me in a straight jacket and I submitted to a shot.
I woke up a few days later and couldn't move my legs.
My first weekend pass I had a panic attack in a friends van and had to go back to hospital.
I wasn't on any meds after that shot except codine. ( believe that) my Pdoc saw me for a full hour every night. I would take all of my clothes off.
I refused to see my boyfriend. He came every night. But I was in love with another man and would phone him and speak for hours everyday on the phone.
I wouldn't eat. ( a strange pattern with all my ips. ) I went down to 107 lbs. I'm almost 5'10 so that was way too thin. )
I was in for a month. Then went to Grandparents. I'd listen to the same music over and over.
Before the psychotic Episode, my best friend killed herself. My stepmom died. ( supposedly my father pushed her down the stairs) and another traumatic event.
I think my brain couldn't handle anymore.