I used to have that happen a lot... getting hit with the sudden realization that I was here, then wondering where here is, when here is, why am I here, who am I, what am I, is this real... then I'd poke myself in the face and wonder even more. I never have figured out what that is all about. It's not just a me thing in my system. I mean, it happens to others as well.

For some of us in my system, it seems as though it is a derealizzation/depersonalization thing going on. For others it gets a little more mixed up because of how we all function. We are a heavily segregated group... if that makes sense. I mean, we have all these little groups of people who function only within there group, but generally alongside of one or more groups of people. Some of us, like L.P. will flat out tell you that they are sometimes one person but then that person splits up into, up to, four individuals that make up one whole... like a transformer. It can be hard for those of us who are sometimes solo beings and other times conglomerates to know for sure who was there from one moment t the next. We also do have fragments left in our system that handle very specific tasks and as far as I know, none of us can ever say for sure if we are picking up on a fragment or had one take over, because most of us are bad at time and knowing if we did a thing or just thought we did a thing in the first place. Kinda like having a perma sense of road haze where you blank out ten minutes of drive time down a highway...

Veda