I am trying some stuff I learned from my dbt workbook but it's difficult today. I keep on feeling down that I will be alone again for the new year. I'm trying to choose not to let it bother me and to do something about it. However I'm struggling. I'm ready eyed thinking of past and worrying about future whether I'll always be alone which i do not want. I want companionship, lover supporter. Why can't I do this.