Well my problem seems very trivial to me compared to the problems that other people here are experiencing but I will share my story!!
I have been VERY DEPRESSED because of my actions ! This is my story! I was employed as a finance manager at a auto dealer for 4 1/2 yrs & in May I went on vacation to Germany & when I got back the battery in the car they let me use was dead so I jumped it off & took it into the service dept & they put a new battery in it & nothing more was said to me! Then on June 10th when I got my bonus check they had deducted $180 for the battery! so I went to the V.P. & she told me it was because of my radar detector & I shouldn't of had one in their car & if I dint like her decision I could leave!! I was ANGRY & HURT by her response since I have been a faithful employee for 4 1/2 years so at the end of June I quit a $140k a year job over principle & because what they did was illegal ( in the state of IL where I live a employer cannot take monies out of your check without your written consent at time of deduction!!) then I wrote a letter to the labor board & the dealer sent me a check for the $180 because they were wrong in the laws eyes! I took a 2 week trip to Las Vegas to visit a friend & had thoughts of trying to move there! so when I got back I was talking to a friend in the car business & he said he was looking to buy a house so I agreed to sell it (without thinking everything through) so I went back to Vegas to try & get a commitment for employment & FAILED! by that time it was too late to back out of the sale of my house !!
it was only 20 min from my old job a 3000 sq ft custom home in a GREAT area that is still growing plus I only had a $1900 mtg pmnt so then I had to scramble to find a place to rent that I could fit my stuff in & that was vacant!! so I found a townhome in a area I HATE & the rent is $1500 go figure I still haven't found employment at another auto dealer & have tried many times to get my old job back but because of the letter to the labor board the owner says NO even though he is losing $$$ without me because I was his top producer!! I think its HIS pride!
SO because of the 3 BIG mistakes I have made I have IMPLODED my life & my friends cannot understand what my pain really is !! 1st mistake. (Quitting over something so trivial as $180! )2nd mistake ( writing a letter to the labor board!) 3rd mistake selling my house while unemployed (was spending precious time looking for place to move rather than job hunting) I just wish I could turn the clock back!!! I REALLY miss my old job & almost ALL the people there !! I am still unemployed & I have trouble sleeping for more than 4-5 hours & wake up in the middle of the night & pace around my townhome like a caged animal!! I HATE IT!! my doctor put me on Zoloft & have been on it for a week now !! when I was young I was a F**k up & took 5 yrs to graduate high school & didn't have a great childhood (was adopted from birth & lost my Mom to cancer when I was in 8th grade! ) I have worked very hard to get where I was & then I feel I threw it all away because of MY PRIDE but I have have talked to many times & even wrote a letter & sent him back the $180 to the owner & still he wont show compassion & let me come back!! I SOO MISS everything I had & feel it will take me forever to get back where I was!! my friends tell me to move on & that I should be glad that I still have my health & my car & a roof over my head & I know these are things to be thankful for but they don't understand my pain !! I feel like I have fallen SOO hard on my face because of MYSELF!! any advice or comments or questions are welcome!!!
Thanks for listening!!
Kenny