Hey everyone,

I've been a frequent flier in viewing feeds around here and finally today I made an account because there's something I need opinions on. Hopefully you all can help me out and welcome me to the psych central community!

So I moved to a new city to start medical school in July. In the year leading up to this, I was in weekly therapy and seeing my psychiatrist every 1-2 weeks because I was having a lot of issues with anxiety and depression. Since I got here I have been trying to find good providers that I feel like I can settle in with for the next few years. The first therapist I saw was absolutely awful (I'll spare details), and I left him after 4 sessions, and started seeing a new therapist in the same practice. She is much better and I like her a lot, and I get to see her twice a week, so at least I got that going for me.

With finding a psychiatrist though I haven't had much luck. The first guy I saw gave me meds I said I didn't want because I tried that class of drugs before and didn't like the side effects and then when I got them, I realized they interacted with my medications for a medical issue I have, so I couldn't take them. When I emailed him about it, he emailed me back a week later, called me by the wrong name, and didn't even apologize. I cancelled my next session with him. Several months later I decided to try again. This new lady I saw didn't want to prescribe anything in the first appointment, and our appointment lasted for 2 hours where she grilled me on stuff that my T had written in her notes that I was very uncomfortable talking about (and no, it was not essential to know to prescribe). Then our second appointment several weeks later she came very unprepared to (I'll spare the details but it was obvious) and then only recommended one med, and it would've caused cognitive impairment, which is not an option because I am a medical student...which she knew...and then finally at our third appointment she prescribed (yay! Or so I thought...) and then I went to pick them up at the pharmacy and the copay was $50/month which I can't afford at all (we had a conversation about how I couldn't make rent that month prior, so she knew I was struggling financially). I left in tears and I'm still very distraught about it. I emailed her informing her of the issue I encountered and she told me to: "find a list of meds that are covered or affordable and we can pick from there." I was livid upon receiving this response. I felt like she was asking me to just do her job for her...isn't it her job to make a list!?! And help me figure out the co-pays!? I'm stressed out enough as it is, to put that on me I felt was ridiculous. Not to mention she didn't even apologize. And then I emailed her back and told her that if that was the case, I wasn't interested in seeing her anymore, and she just said "okay, best of luck." And then CC'd my T on the email. (As if my T didn't already know... *rolls eyes*). I felt like that just reaffirmed that she didn't care about me in the first place!

Anyway, sorry this post is so long. I just want some advice I guess. Is it me? Am I the problem? Am I overreacting? Expecting too much from my providers? I had a really great psychiatrist that I really liked in my old town and maybe I just expect every PDoc to be like her... Should I even bother trying to find a new, third, PDoc? Do I just give up on meds and hope that therapy works miracles for me?

Thanks in advance for the help everyone. I hope I'm posting this on the appropriate forum!