yeah i have to think about wether i will stay here , its tough to come to a place where you know that so many hate you for what you are not what youve done. There are some funny wonderful people here but its hard to get over this loathing and hostility that greets you at the door. funny thing is ive lived my life in service of one kind or another and gave until i ruined my health but i m a man so therefor despite everything im still a selfish self centered untrainable neanderthal. i wonder if the haters have given a small percentage of that i have.