Are these PhD programs? If so, it just doesn't sound like you're ready for that level of work. I have a PhD and I'm a professor now and I can tell you from experience that a PhD is HARD work and it's 24/7 and 50% of grad students who come in, even with near 4.0 GPAs from Ivy League schools, still don't make it through the program. I had a 3.9 gpa from undergrad and top 2% on the GRE and I only got into one of the 8 PhD programs I applied to. I thought sailing through undergrad meant I was ready for a PhD-- and it didn't. I earned he PhD and finished with almost a 4.0 but there were times I felt unprepared and overehlemed and wanted to quit. It is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. The advice I would give you is NOT to go straight to grad school. Get real life research experience first. Learn more about the career. Mature a little bit. Get your mental health fully under control. Then, if you're still 100% set on grad school, then do it. The vast majority of grad students we admit still aren't ready for that level of work and it's really a waste of time, money, and energy if you aren't ready.