On Monday, I logged into psych central and freaked out completely. We had a new member, who I think was just a visitor with a name my abuser used to use (his name turned backwards)this is how he signed cards to my mum, and the year I put a complete stop to the abuse.....

I panicked, was triggered and pmed Doc John to terminate my old account. I wanted all my posts made anonymous. It isn't really working out as my old posts have my name on them still and my style of writing didn't fool anyone. I felt horrible all week, knowing I was speaking to friends I've know n for a long time and they didn't know it was me. I apologise, but I had to look after myself, the chances of it being him, or my mother who knows I come on here and my old name are slim, but no one knows where he is...I just panicked, but like my t said, he wouldn't come here under a name people know him by. Like I said, I am so sorry, I just panicked and had such a bad day, I'd forgotten aout that name until I signed in on Monday - So now you all know METIME is JINNYANN. Some know already cos they guessed. I hate my new name, so it may be confusing when I sign my name Jinny, I felt so out of place this week, like I couldn't say what I wanted, it's horrible.

Jinny xxxxxxxx there, I can use my kisses again. Sorry if people think I've been dishonest, but I had to do it for my own peace of mind........

I'm sure friends will understand.

Thanks